# At my first defense

"When I first appeared in court and explained my actions"

# no one stood with me

"no one stayed with me and helped me"

# May it not be counted against them

This can be stated in active form. Alternate translation: "May God not count it against them" or "I pray that God does not punish those believers for leaving me" (See: [[rc://en/ta/man/translate/figs-activepassive]])