# all of this I laid to my heart
"I thought very deeply about all this"
# in the hand of God
Here the word "hand" refers to power and authority. Alternate translation: "under God's control" (See: [[rc://en/ta/man/translate/figs-metonymy]])
# whether love or hate awaits him
This speaks of "love" and "hate" as if they are people that may come to visit someone else. Alternate translation: "whether he will experience love or hate" (See: [[rc://en/ta/man/translate/figs-personification]])